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im just gonna put this out there: when 1d reunites again, the level of support for them will be unprecedented. i fear the world won't be ready for it.
recall how they big they were even when we were all just teenagers with no big girl money.
now? we have big girl money and our love for them has grown bigger than ever. plus, many have been added to our ever-growing family.
they were literal novice singers with no experience.
now? they have all become artists who have forged their own paths in the music industry. icons. legends. renowned musicians. in their own right.
the world won't be ready for the boys. i'm ready to pour my heart out for OT5. just give me the time and place and i'll be there.
for harry. for louis. for niall. for zayn.
for liam.
#just a realization#idk if itll ever happen#but if it does#it will break the world#idk if i am just blinded by grief#but this feels so true to me#one direction#louis#liam#harry#louis tomlinson#larry#niall#zayn#harry styles#liam payne#zayn malik#niall horan
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Zukka brain worms are BACK husbands ❤️
#this is one of thos ships where idk if itll ever rlly happen but damn if I dont wish it could#like the creators are lgbtq friendly and conidering cannon i thinks it would be possible from a story perspective#i just think itd be nice if we got a story abt querre adults realizing later in life or working through some stuff#especially bc this movie is when their adults and is aimed at an older audience (many of which are queer adults who grew up w avatar)#zukka#atla spoilers#atla#op being old and hopeful in the taggs like a fool
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its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost
#tiddytaco#b#thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt#she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot#& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch#& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot#& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind#that whole time period was just so insane & awful#bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents#& then my grandpa died#& all our pets at the time were very old#& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year#it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last#& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity#we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse#& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her#& that was so . So bad. SO bad#like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad#just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out
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Im genuinely very curious to see what the general consensus is in the fandom for these two…
Like will they ever be confirmed(one sided or not) to have romantic feelings for each other or will it stay in the “there just best friend” thing they have
#tbhk#toilet bound hanako kun#jibaku shounen hanako kun#jshk#kou minamoto#mitsuba sousuke#mitsukou#I ship it#but I don’t think it will ever be confirmed that they like each other#plus honestly Mitsuba is dead and I want kou to live a long happy life so like idk how to feel as a shipper#I’ve always felts it’s clearly bait but idk I see people who are like pretty confident it could happen#I just feel Japan is a pretty homophobic place still(my aunt is les and married she moved to Japan and they struggle)#so itll be parrelled and implied but never actually said that they feel anything more than friendship#I’m not trying to insult AidaIro either btw#or you if you think it will happen#honestly idk what will happen#I just really really want to know what most people thing so I don’t offend people
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#idk if ive ever said this on tumblr but gray is actually my fav brawler to play#hes so fun... i love playing him on goldarm gulch#cuz its the best map for getting clips on lolol#ive won so many 3v1s as gray on that map#its also the map that i pushed him to 900 on#i want gray to be my first r30 but i dont think itll ever happen lol#the difference between 900 to 1000 is crazy ... its so damn hard to grind#brawl stars#brawl stars fanart#brawl stars art#brawl stars gray
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fr tho i think SLTs is actually such a good concept because im just thinking like yes we had the biology sex education of hormones are a thing and if you dont use a condom this is what your penis will look like but if anyone ANYONE had been open with me about what sexualities are and how they feel then maybe someone wouldve said 'hey this is something that you actually feel its not a thinking thing and yes, some people actually DO start this early. if you dont relate maybe look into the words asexual and aromantic' then i would have maybe felt less like a freak and not forced myself through both guys and girls trying to find something that actually felt right because right now nobody talks about it especially not when it comes to teenagers which is fair enough but also it really really would have been beneficial to me and im sure other people if it was discussed in a respectful controlled manner
#sorry if anyone doesnt know what SLTs is its a reference to heartbreak high#like i come from a very progressive open left family and surroundings#my school had p much a 0 tolerance policy for all things discrimination#yes we had a gsa but you dont sign up for that unless you already know something is up#so like i knew about the gay straight bisexual everything#and i even knew the word asexual#but since nobody ever actually explained anything about anything i just figured oh whatever itll happen im only 15 anyway#and ESPECIALLY on being aro i didnt know that was a thing and even if i did i never would have identified myself if it wasnt for tumblr#heartbreak high#idk if i should tag that#asexual#aromantic#aroace
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Yuri!!! On Cards collaboration!
So, I know I've been pretty inactive recently, at least in posting my own art but for good reason! In the Yuri on the Web Discord server artists and writers alike have all collaborated to illustrate a deck of cards and write stories for each of them. And as a resident artist myself, I couldn't not take the opportunity to draw for this project UuU
Oh and if anyone was wondering, yes, I am to blame for inflicting this giant project onto the server BUT I REGRET NOTHING AND NEITHER WILL YOU IF YOU CHECK OUT EVERYONE ELSE'S WORKS. Trust me, they are amazing! The masterpost can be found here!
GIANT thanks to @lines-on-ice and @yaoiconnoisseur for helping so much and being amazing co-administrators and basically making this entire thing possible! You really saved me from my own overambition XD
The guidelines for this project can be found on the Yuri!!! On Cards blog as can the masterpost with all the links to everything. All the art that gets posted to Tumblr will also be reblogged by the blog.
With all that said, here's the actual art I made! (Break for those who don't want their dash to die UuU)
Okay, I lied. First, I'd heavily recommend for you to check out the guideline posts, both the general and artists' and even the writers' if you're up to it to get a grasp of the perimeters of this project. There's also some vague lore and AU stuff about the whole thing to find which will give you context for why the art looks the way it does to a certain extent.
You can also just jump right in and take everything as I ramble about it which, I mean, I won't stop you, the guideline posts aren't short. I will not blame you. You can still just look at the art. If that's your choice, go on ahead!
First up!
Ace of the Kingdom Otabek, The Deep Shadow
Being of the Kingdom of Diamonds, he's skillful and sharp. He moves quietly as a shadow and is just as mysterious.
Okay, I can't comment much on how he actually is, you'll have find that out by reading his fic(let?). They were supposed to be ficlets but as writers tend to do, none of us could manage that so take "ficlet" with a big grain of salt for every written work.
I've, by the way, not read any of the ficlets for this project beside my own so I'll get to experience the reveal with y'all and I'm gonna perish waiting.
Anyway, about the art. The yellow of course comes from the Kingdom of Diamonds' designated colour. As for the outfit, it's based on this handsome fellow I found who's supposed to be a Kazakh archer which I thought fit Otabek's whole shadow thing perfectly (and Writingfromtheshadow's fic Equivalent Exchange has me in an iron grip and I don't want to be released).
If there are any Kazakhs in the audience, you are free to laugh at me for any inaccuracies or missteps, I am but a humble little not-Kazakh, I don't expect to have gotten it all right UuU
Next up!
King Yuuri, Wanderer of Dreams
The ruler of his realm, he is as the mind flows. Kind and benevolent yet of fickle thoughts, the spirals of the subconscious are ones he both masters and bows to.
Again, gonna be waiting for his fic with everyone else but like. It's Yuuri. Anxiety is kind of a given.
In terms of art, I don't know if you can tell but this was where I started writing my will because oh my stars, what did I get myself into. If you follow me or my art, you'll know that I don't draw lineless. Like ever. And apparently I decided this project on a deadline that others were depending on me making look nice was the place to go all out.
And the worst part is that I'm not even mad at it so I have no argument to not do it again.
Anyway, the blue is from the designated colour of spades and yes, you've guessed right as to why this colour was picked for this suit. I'm predictable, leave me alone. As for the rest, the outfit is inspired by traditional Japanese dress that the Internet told me about (again, Japanese may laugh at me all they want UuU Your culture is very cool but also there was so much info, I hope I got it at least a bit right).
Also I spent like eight hours looking at hanakotoba for this and I've never been this happy about a decision I regretted so much while I was having to draw that many flowers. And you know I had to include The Gay Flower^(TM).
The Japanese iris is now Yuuri's btw.
All the flowers used are: Japanese irises, Jasmine flowers, Forget-me-nots, cherry blossoms, white roses, green carnations and blue roses (Viktor's flower. Read: I am predictable).
And finally!
Queen Minako, Tamer of Minds
Of the Realm of Dreams, she sees your fears, the snares laid by the subconscious and, strict and blunt as she is, she clears a path for the motivated and lets no potential go to waste.
Again, haven't read a word of the fic.
This one was by far the one that I made the fastest and I would've loved to do more with it but like deadlines. I'm gracefully skipping over the fact that I set the deadline and am fully to blame for being late.
But, as with Yuuri, blue is for spades. And since I wanted her to have a leotard but still match Yuuri and make her outfit look even slightly Japanese inspired, sheer fabric to the rescue! With cherry blossoms, of course, because CSP had the pattern preinstalled UuU
And I don't know if it worked but I tried to make her hair both look like her signature style, traditional Japanese hairstyles I found on the good ol' Interwebs and then kind of a spade by having that middle stick be the stem and the hair the spade's butt.
Also this probably goes without saying but the ranks of the characters are just titles. Yuuri is not married to Minako, she is just the Queen and he the King, don't worry.
Again, a BIG thank you to everyone who also participated, it was so fun to work together on this and see everyone's progress! Nic and Lil, you're amazing, thank you so much for everything you've done for this!
And to everyone who's made it this far, thank you for sticking around and please go check out all the other art and the ficlets! I promise it's worth it!
Masterpost | AO3 collection
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA this project almost killed me#i am so infinitely happy about everyones contributions they are so lovely and i am gonna die happy now#but seriously what idiot decided to try a new and more detailed rendering style on a deadline#its me#i am that idiot and if i had a time machine past me would have gotten the fattest slap#idk if im ever gonna do that again but if i know myself at all itll happen because this wasnt disastrous enough a result to dissuade me#and most of it im pretty happy with#also i had so much fun with otabek#i got to play with light and texture and light and those smoke tendrils in the back and light and that fabric and light and#also rendering minako was a BLAST even if i churned her out on severe sleep deprivation my only energy being spite for my own mortality#oh and yes it was a this we decided that the aces should somehow incorporate the king of the given suit so the anger kitten is there#in otabeks i mean#now ON TO ANOTHER PROJECT#THATS... ON A DEADLINE#UH#yuri on cards#yuri on ice#yoi#yuri on ice fanart#yoi fanart#fanart#art#arom antix art#arom antix#otabek altin#katsuki yuuri#okukawa minako#collab
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good news for all my haters: im not coming back. not properly. i think social media and being around ppl in general is destroying me so im gonna just focus my energy on other stuff
ill probably still be a little bit active occassionally but for now i think il just stick to posting art etc. im moving to sheezy.art (which is down for maintenance rn but opens for registration again on fridays!) bc the energy there is much nicer for me.. but ill still post on here and insta. im also gonna be working on building my own website again!! so bookmark it and maybe some day itll have cool stuff on it.... :]
#idk ill see how this goes but ive been like lurking here for a couple days and every time without fail it makes me feel shitty#may not be a permanent thing but i have a couple safeguards in place now to stop me from getting sooooo bad. i think#i deleted all the apps off my phone. which has helped a lot esp deleting insta for reels#and i actually made another blog for like if i ever go Cazy again. for like vents and stuff . altho if im not on social media at all it#shldnt be a prblem#i wont share that but u can ask for it if u want. tho unlikely ill post for a while idk#for the record my neocities has like nothing on it rn. its essentially a series of tests from when i started last yr#and got nowhere lollll.. but im hoping to have a lot of fun with it soon#lol this whole thing is a little stupid. and i feel bad but just know its all my own fault. my own issues etc#its happened b4 itll happen time and time again i think. so im just gonna part ways w it#from now on if im gonna overshare it has to be in a lengthy edited well written blog post !!!!!!!!!!!#oke. bye#i do actually have smth to post later on my rnm blog but whatevaaa#oh ill start up my queues again too
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soon i will write a meta about zatanna's traumatic responses to sacrificial characters and why she has, down the line, kept more of her cards close to her chest in hopes that the lack of knowledge will discourage people from trying to take the wheel on situations; an abstract way of forcing her own autonomy & ensuring they won't take unnecessary risks that she herself should do.
#idc if the ending of jl/d never gets rehashed again (it wont. and i lied i am forever upset about it.) but i think its so bizarre how people#and by people i mean other zee stans will look at what happened and say it was wildly out of character but like !!! idk ive been WAITING#for her to develop some bad habits in response to people constantly giving their life for her#i also dont think shes as dumb or naive as ppl are saying why would u NOT have faith in that she knows what shes doing???#did she take a WILDLY big leap at the end. yes definitely. and itll probably be bad before it gets good but all in all shes proved herself#to be a good leader & capable of defending and protecting her team...#this wont go anywhere bc they wont ever bring that issue up again so ill stfu#RAHHH!!!!
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happily partnered however i think you are an incredibly charming and attractive person!!! you're very funny and every time you post a selfie im like wow!!!!!!!! handsome!!!!!!!! honestly your only bad quality is how mean you are to yourself and your art. you are a wonderful person, and i know you'll get a partner!!!!! it gets better, cheye!!!!!!! hang in there!!!!!!
Signed, Someone Who Also Thought They'd Never Be Loved.
Thank u! ^_^
#but honestly at this point ive shifted to trying to accept itll never happen LOL#idk. too many factors. i dont have enough going on to ever have enough in common with someone to Get There#and after my horrible experience i think i have ROCD.#anonymous#skunk mail
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in my quest to maybe move back to providence after 20 years, im looking at jobs down there and damn i think i might be better off financially pivoting to carpentry/construction work for a while
#messages from the ouija board#the biggest two hurdles there are 1) gender. on multiple levels. but maybe i could get my dad to put in a good word for me w an old contact#bc he seems to know every tradesman in rhode island somehow. a#but like. every manual labor job ive ever had other than assisting my dad. gender has become a Problem. and itll probably be worse now#and then 2) id have to get a vehicle and all the bells and whistles w that#though idk maybe i could ask my coworker marty about how to get into stage carpentry#bc hes trans and seems to be doing well in it#ive always enjoyed manual labor stuff like i love painting i love demo work i loved repairing tombstones i love building shit#but the few times ive actually been hired by people who arent family its been a real struggle to be taken seriously#in one case i got harassed (over being a 'woman') into leaving#and in another it just made the guys on the crew increasingly uncomfortable 'having a girl around' and when the current job wrapped up#i just got ghosted. no telling me where the next job was. no returning my calls. nothing.#and im scared of that happening again. but also. the money seems way better than museum work wrt what im qualified for
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i kinda wish sometimes that i had more ppl to just like discuss and jam about meat&candy but im having way way way too much of a good time vibing on my own
#our t#talking about the eps more publicly in my experience generates way too much... idk drama i guess could be the word. anger#conflict is a better word. which sucks cause i just wanna vibe and enjoy the thing we all enjoy#but like during my latest group reading of hs1 i can SEE the seeds of what happens in the eps and hsbc#i mean my partner system pointed out the direct line from dirk's pony pals rewrite to how he took over as the new narrator#and he handles both the EXACT SAME WAY#beyond canon is literally just a continuation of hs#its just 2 possibilities of that continuation we get to see#there were 3 things in that picnic basket after all. the book represents fic and even the entire epilogue themselves#is like a pitch-tinged loving callback to the crappy 2000s fanfic we all used to write as edgy 11y/os on ff.net#using an ao3 format so younger fans and readers can connect to it better cause ff.net is currently DEAD and idk if itll ever come back lmao#good tbh cause its organization was shiiit ao3 is much better. its an actual ARCHIVE for one#but i say pitch-tinged cause hussie has always done that#affectionate references to Being A Tween/Teen while also poking fun at the whole thing. its rlly rlly important to keep that in mind imo
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its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF
#not anything serious i was just thinking how like. idk. this is gonna sound rly stupid#but for me personally like. sometimes. How do i phrase this without sounding rly evil#i think obv ppl can spend their money however they want but like. its kind of hard 4 me to grasp sometimes like. there r things that ppl#spend a lot of money on bc it makes them happy like umm. vacations or pets or hobbies or whathaveyou. and obviously thats fine but#i iust feel like its all so. temporary and like. idk. idt im ohrasing this right at all i just likee. the thought of working all year to#afford to take a vacation and then working again to afford another vacation just makes me feel like i want to die. like. idk... i like#vacations we dont need to go on them a lot but ig its just like. everything we do just feels like a waste of time. not in like a Ohh you#should be doing more work Obviously its just like. idk. maybe it is just me. but i feel like im just waiting until i die and can be done#with it i guess. and everything i do is just to fill time until that happens. yk ? which is silly bc of my whole. Thing i cant talk abt#but ppl talk abt like. going out and partying or going on vacation or whatever and i like. I like those things its nice when they happen#but they dont rly make me longterm any happier i guess. everything just feels like another thing im doing. idk. this rly isnt coming out the#way it is in my head. and Again i know this is just depression shit or whatever im just like. its all exhausting. it just makes me feel so#tired. to think abt working and working and working so i can pay to be alive and i can save to do one fun thing every so often to keep me#sane enough to keep working and working and working and i probably wont ever be able to retire itll just be. work. and then ill die. yk.#but i feel like the vacations and stuff dont like. refresh me very much. maybe its just bc ive only been on one 'vacation' as an adult and#it was just like. coming home to see my family. and realizing id have to move back home yk..#+ like. my mom nd my gran taking me out for a weekend when i lived up there#nd those things were nice and all but once its over its like. it doesnt fuel me to keep going it doesnt make me feel any better abt having#to work for the rest of my life#ik im being ridiculous bc im literally unemployed and i cant even get up off my ass to get my stupid fucking ged so i can get a job and be#Useful to my family its just like. idk.... i try so hard to be like Oh nothing mayters and thats why everything matters type thing like. Yes#all things end and the point is to just try to be happy until it does#but i feel like it just doesnt happen for me. i feel like any happiness i feel is so insanely like. it happens and then its gone. and its#back to just. the knowledge that im still fucking stuck here. and i will be until it happens. yk. i play video games tomoass the time until#i go back to sleep then i wake up and i make a spreadsheet to pass the time until i go back to sleep#and everyday just feels like passing the time until i go back to sleep and itll just keep going until it happens. and its nice to have nice#days but whats like. the point. yk. everything just ends#IDK. this is all very whiny im sry. ive just been feeling it a lot lately . i hope this doesnt feel like me being like Ohhh you ppl r so#dumb participating in hobbies and going out and having fun dont you know yr gonna DIE? thats not what im trying to be like#its just like. i feel like it doesnt make me as happy as it does other ppl like. none of it refreshes me or makes me want to keep going
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ngl if i ever ended up getting top surgery for whatever reason id want to not tell anyone and give a different answer ever time
“ivy oh my god what happened to ur boobs!!”
“i lost them in the war 😔”
“mila is it just me or did u somehow lose ur breasts”
“YOU MEAN TO SAY THEYRE NOT USUALLY DETACHABLE????”
“bro what happened to ur boobs”
“what boobs??? i never had boobs”
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when im weak to the devil it whispers to tell me to do an entire strokes fanzine. ok
#we stay strokin#still GRAHHH i think i made an exact post abt this but ive somewhat decided the structure#it's just illustrations of songs that i love the most from each album#yay ^_^#iti will have hard to explain trying ur luck and is this it probably#rof wtv happened REPTILIA!! and idk one other ill pick out I KEEP FORGETTING ROF SONGS FAKE FAN!! (jk i just dont think theyre as memorable#FIOE beloved YES i will be very biased to this if no one holds me back itll b 6 fioe songs idgaf#like. cmon. juicebox yolo heartinacage ize r a DEF. but theres also electricityscape ... razorblade... OUGH ...#angles.. rubs hands tgt..#macchu picchu ON TOP ! under cover ... maybe. i dont actually like under cover that much but its Iconic#taken for a fool does under cover better. i think. the vibe. but wtv debate is debate#if i dont draw smth for life is simple ill kms#cmd.... cof is iconic. my personal fav is one way trigger n happy ending tho :)#fpp threat of joy DONT PLAY LAD its so srs threat of joy is probs my fav mv ever ever frm them#tna ... honest to god i could do an entire long piece with all the songs its beautiful#tna is just peak man the whole thing's peak. it's peak#if theres a gun adults at the door n ode#kish soup#long post OVER! ok bai
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god i wish it wasn't only killer that could come back from the dead so that both horror and dust could die and it would be fine(ish) so they can all just kill eachother over and over. a little peek into my dark twisted mind ahh post but i seriously wish,,,,, time to make killer!versions of them so they'll both have human souls and then be able to respawn and then this idea will be real!
#they do WORSE than just fighting they LITERALLY KILL EACHOTHER#horror and dust can kill killer as much as they want!!!! but he cant kill them back??????#its okay killer can just sadistically torture them until he thinks theyve had enough in exchange#i want them all to die at eachothers hands but for it to have no consequence#if horrordust kill killer and it seriously pisses him off he waits for a few days/weeks/MAYBE EVEN A MONTH in the save screen#that way horrordust have time to think about what they did and itll make them miss him and then theyll see how much it bothered him#and only then will he choose to come back. would killer ever be that mean and petty#maybe not...... or maybe i just cant think of something that's bad enough that horrordust would have to do to get killer to do this#i can see him doing it though and thats the funny part. wdym thats manipulation NO ITS NOT!!!!#theyre so terrible for eachother UGH i LOVE IT!!!! eats the toxic relationship#its more than just a toxic dynamic atp its PHYSICALLY ABUSIVE#tricule rant#OMG killer and paranoia..... bc bc bc paranoia has alizas soul#so he can also save and reload. he cant reset tho i made that up i think#stage 3 killer and fight response paranoia in a constant loop of death and rebirth#until one of them moves on from that stage. idk how long fight response could last for paranoia i should decide#anyways killer!dust when. i need to make dust absorb a soul too so he can join killer and paranoia!#stop thinking about it youre gonna actually make ot happen triglycercule.......
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